I saw Innei post an update about what they've been up to lately, and thinking about how I've spent this whole month being a total mess, I honestly felt like I could just die.

I don't even know what made me slack off like this. Maybe it's the games.

Games

May was my second month getting into Honkai Impact 3rd. The rerun banner rotation happened right at the start of the month, so I went all in for a week straight, grinding out 70 pulls to get the Herrscher of Truth (heck yeah). But there was a huge side effect: I kept dozing off in class, and that's still affecting me to this day.

Xingjie launched on May 19th. As a day-one player, I just leave it idling for an hour every day, and the only thing I do is watch the story. Yesterday I even witnessed players cursing out the devs in the official group #2, and wasted a bunch of time on that.

May also happened to be Arknights' 4th anniversary, though I didn't really play much.

Honkai: Star Rail launched on April 26th, but by May I'd already stopped playing it much.

In short, I can't even be bothered to play games anymore.

Anime Stuff

On May 2nd, Misaka Mikoto's birthday, I posted a little something to celebrate. That was the only post I made since April 21st.

Server

Yeah, my blog was down for a while. It's because the Hong Kong server from Yinliu Network needed a reinstall.

Looks like I'm about to get busy again (no I'm not, I'm still slacking off).

To My Future Self

Xingjie showed me what today's Chinese gacha games are like — a lot of them are just cash grabs. That kind of threw a wrench in my plans. I've been thinking about making a game myself, but I'm missing everything: the skills, the art. The only things I have in abundance are the writer (me) and the customer support (also me). It feels like there's no future in making games, but I'm not content with where I am either. I want to find an industry with some real prospects and put in the work, but how many chances are even left for me?

Might as well just slack off.

(To be honest, this post is pretty half-assed too.)