Small Achievements on Bilibili
One thing that made me happy (probably the only thing) is that my Bilibili account has surpassed 1000 followers. Although our AcFun is already in a terrible state, I still made a very crude poster and posted it.
Very crude
Although it's undeniable that this achievement came from making clips of @饼里有虫's live streams, to some extent it's mutually beneficial, since Bingzi also reached 100k followers.
All Comfort Zones Shattered
As for other things, they've been evolving in a terrible way. Simply put, I've gradually lost my sense of belonging. I used to chat in QQ groups every day, but now it's good enough if I can send a few messages in a few groups each day.
To quote a certain Suiye, I've failed in my investments.
Whatever, I have no good feelings toward [data deleted]. All I see is that my mistakes are being doubly stigmatized. As for the rest, I can't see it.
What I once created has become a reason to attack me. To some extent, it's quite ridiculous. In short, it's my own doing. So I have no right to correct others' views of me. I might as well just fulfill others' expectations.
After realizing that things could never satisfy me, I chose to become a clown and put myself on the blacklist of the [data deleted] official website.
Then what happened met my expectations: no one corrected that page, and I was directly angered by the comment "Why is this person still here?" and quit the [data deleted] external group.
It's really completely ruined.
I'm an idiot.
Small Experiments in New Directions
I didn't even realize I've been registered on GitHub for 4 years.
One thing better than last year is that my GitHub commit count has increased a lot. During this time, I also converted some purely static websites I had into the GitHub + Cloudflare Pages model, reducing a lot of server traffic. Although I still can't use up the monthly traffic, at least I can keep my websites running even after I can't afford to renew the server.
At the same time, I also created new documentation for https://github.com/BalloonUpdate, though now I've given up on it since the necessary content is already done.
Also this year, I tried to make some cultural and creative products, all of which are rail transit maps. Although it was fun to make, my right shoulder blade gradually got injured.
There's also one for Nanning, but I don't plan to release it yet because it hasn't been well polished and adjusting it will take a lot of time.
Afterword
I actually don't really want to write an article reviewing my 2024, because it's been terrible. 2024 passed by in a daze. I can't really say what I did this year. I always feel like everything is just like last year, terribly bad, and I've even pushed myself into a low point, unwilling to see a psychologist. I'm simply a machine running with a disease.
But what can I do? Life is my own choice. Am I going to explode with this world? That's unlikely, right?
Being in a daze is also fine, isn't it? After all, I still have ACG to immerse myself in.
Ah, right. Sleeping until the heat death of the universe is also fine.
2024 Summary · It's Terrible, I've Exploded with This World
2024 Summary · It's Terrible, I've Exploded with This World